Blog #90

I made it to blog #90. Thank you all for the support to get this far. I originally had an idea for this blog entry but I changed my mind so much today and yesterday when I realized that I was at number 90. I have been dealing with alot and that is why you the reader of this blog has probably felt let down. I am sorry for that. Things have gone on and I have not written near as much, and part of it is I lost interest not only in this blog but in life in general. I have not been depressed or need to rediscover religion. I have just felt disconnected from myself and feel into a rut. I have no life outside of my little box. School was a major motivator and then I dropped out due to finding out somethings about what I was majoring in that I did not like and then I did drop out and it left me with a void. I dropped out mainly because I was having issues with a class that I am not strong in, being on LinkedIn has not helped and I could not see myself volunteering all over the place to gain experience in my former major. Plus if you have been a regular reader of my blog I have felt like I have lost something and no I still not found it. Alot of people have told me its not dead or gone just waiting to be reawaken, I am still waiting. My job, oh where do I start on that subject, I hate it and its the reason I went back to school in the first place. So I am beginning to agree with a friend of mine that I simply have no life, I am always helping family, or working with no break in the pattern and that in turn is making me just despise everything.

I have always been there for my friends, most of which are online, they are the very few who understand me or try to and they know in turn that I am there for them. In my real world I have zero friends because I do not fit in at all and no one agrees with my points of view. I have been known to scare people with what goes on in my head. I do not try to scare them I feel like I am on a different level of intelligence.

I will not be doing a blog on ICD-10 anymore the delay is set in stone and come to find out the government has been stalling this since 1999. But since I am no longer in that program of study I am letting that subject go. All of my former classmates and people I talked to on LinkedIn are in shock and still looking for that bright side.

So moving forward I am going to get back to writing about various things. I am headed into a technology field in the summer so I am going to be doing the only thing left I feel I can do and that is Computer Support Specialist. So I am looking forward to that if I can get back into school with no issues. So that will light a little fire under my butt.

I have fallen into a rut of doing the same thing everyday with no change. I have no friends with the same interests in my area. So this summer I will be pretty much starting over in school and hopefully can find some interesting people with the same interest in computer technology.

Thanks again for the support of this blog, and please forgive me for the lack of writing, and I am going to try to get the blogging fire reignited so please be patient.

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