Monday, October 3, 2016

"My Thoughts on the World"

Side note about my last blog post. I want it to start a conversation since we live in a world where not everything that is truly going on is being talked about. So please read and share and get your friends to read and share. If you are in doubt GOOGLE it.

-Now back to our regularly scheduled blog-

So a fellow blogger recently posted on this topic and suggested that I should write it. At the time I said no because as you all know I am gothic and I am Atheist. But that does not mean I do not totally believe in nothing. I do believe in the world we live on. Let's face it, we are killing it, due to greed and we have totally raped and pillaged our own home. The bees are dying. The rain forest in south America is still being cut down slowly. But some people do not see this. Our way of mind is being controlled by the media and the government if you think about. Some of it is being controlled by the religious congregations, for example Christians. Think about it how many times have you heard something about a law being debated and the bible get thrown into the mix. What are we as a society going to do when a cop can no loner protect law and order because people do not want to listen to an officer's commands. Think about it do you want to wake up one day in a militarized zone because people can not do right and either get themselves killed or an officer is killed. We are slowly moving into a society where the Bile is being used as the "law", and that the "lord's way he created the Earth" is trying to be taught in schools instead of where in theory we really come from., which by the way is the "big bang" and the theory of Evolution. People are given things and in return we turn a blind eye to what is going on and let our "leaders" make decisions for us, because most believe that our "leaders" are doing "god's work", when they are really doing their own work. I get tired of seeing people get a free ride from the government and I know that there are so many that are abusing the system, they flaunt it and people turn a blind eye to it. You mention drug tests for these people who are riding on coat tails and they all freak out claiming it is unfair and it is discriminatory. I had to fight to get aid to go back to school, back in 2011. Why you ask because I do not have a wife and kids at home and they tried to claim I made too much money, which by the way at the time I made less than $18,000 the year prior and I live on my own and pay my bills every month on time. I sat in classes with people who were only there so they did not have to work and they were already on some form of subsidy.

So yeah is it wrong for me to wish this world would hurry up and burn, to some maybe, to others they would tell me to go vote or rediscover "God", or they would just be in shock and awe. This is why I am the way I am. In life no matter what you do and no matter how hard you work nothing changes, so it all needs to burn and let mother nature start over....

"Bees on the Endangered Species List"


To my readers,

The link above goes to a Facebook site that everyone that reads this post needs to go to. For those of you that have not heard, Bees were officially put on the endangered species list. And if this one fact amongst every thing else that is going on in the world does not alarm you, well to be honest, you really do not care. Personally I do not give a flying fuck about Clinton and Trump, but that is another blog.

Our bees are going away due to man and global warming. If the bees go away we are totally screwed. We need bees to pollenate the world's vegetation and crops that we grow. Bees are part of our survival. But since no one wants to admit that it is our (man's) fault that this is happening. We spray chemicals and pesticides everywhere without any consequence. Some of the chemicals that farmers and others are using are killing off both the bees and other insects. No one thinks what all this stuff is killing besides the bees, THE ENVIRONMENT. So all these corporations are making money off the farmer who is promised more money when he sells his crops, but in order for better the reward the farmer thinks that his crop has to be bigger and more prefect. I do not mind a spot on my apple, you cut around it. But wait they put so much chemicals on our food in this day and age no one asks if the food is real or not. We have GMO's and we have big greed from corporations, both of which do not care that they are destroying us and the bees in the process of their bottom line. They are not thinking about their future in this world, all they care about is their money and what they can do in the "right now". If the bees die away, WE DIE AWAY....

But of course instead of oh we need to save the bees....science is trying to come up with a "replacement bee". Which is a tiny little robot that will do the pollenating should we kill off the bee instead of trying to save it.

Think about that for awhile....


Sunday, October 2, 2016

"The Nativity Stone Cross"

I saw this commercial today for the nativity stone cross:
Nativity Stone Cross Commercial

Click the link to view this commercial. Or visit the site https://www.thenativitycross.com/

So for those of you wondering why I am writing about this. Well first off the commercial claims that the stones for these crosses comes from the cave of the Nativity in Bethlehem, the actual birth place of Jesus But doesn't the Christian bible say that Jesus was born in a manger in a stable in Bethlehem? Or should the commercial say the stone is from the cave where Jesus came back from the dead. Also the commercial claims that the Certificate of authenticity is signed by the high priest of the church of the Nativity. Ok if this is a Christian item then there is no other church other than the Christian church when it comes to items like this.

So once again who in the Christian faith comes up with this stuff. And where does the $29.99 go? But I know that a bunch of people of the Christian faith will buy this stuff in bulk not realizing that the commercial is misleading, if they stop and think about it. But I know that all they are going to hear is the sales pitch and then end of story they are ordering it for everyone they know. Did I mention the commercial mentioned that are a limited number of these "stones".

Christians can cherry pick their own bible to suit themselves, and I guess a corporation can do the same thing to the Christians...

Think about that for awhile.

Movie Review-"Blair Witch" (2016)

Blair Witch is a 2016 American found footage psychological horror film directed by Adam Wingard[4] and written by Simon Barrett. It is a direct sequel to The Blair Witch Project and stars James Allen McCune, Callie Hernandez, Brandon Scott, Corbin Reid, Wes Robinson and Valorie Curry. The film follows a group of college students and their local guides who venture into the Black Hills Forest in Maryland to uncover the mysteries surrounding the disappearance years ago of Heather Donahue, the sister of one of the characters.[5] Initially, the film's connection to the Blair Witch franchise was kept secret, with the film having been shot under the fake title, The Woods.

-Borrowed from Wikipedia-

Even though I had only seen bits and pieces of the "Blair Witch Project", I thought that this film was better than the original. This picks up after the first film the lead character is the brother of the lead character from the original film. Once they get into the woods is when all hell breaks loose and it is a great film with a lot of jump scares. I would go see this movie again if I could not find anything else at the movie theater.

Everyone else that was in the movie theater with me was scared. This movie is worth seeing again.

Movie Review: "The Magnificent 7" (2016)

The Magnificent Seven is a 2016 American Western action film directed by Antoine Fuqua and written by Nic Pizzolatto and Richard Wenk. It is a reimagination of the 1960 western film of the same name, which in turn was a remake of the 1954 Japanese film Seven Samurai. The film stars Denzel Washington, Chris Pratt, Ethan Hawke, Vincent D'Onofrio, Lee Byung-hun, Manuel Garcia-Rulfo, Martin Sensmeier, Haley Bennett and Peter Sarsgaard. It is the final film of composer James Horner, who died the previous year after composing a part of the score; his friend Simon Franglen completed the music.

-Borrowed from Wikipedia-

I went to see this movie with an open mind. I did not know it was a remake, until a channel on Dish Network promoted they were going to show it. I have not seen the original, my parents have. I thought the movie was great. It was full of action and violence that made the film worth it. The director did a great job with this film. I would go see it again if there was nothing else worth seeing.

Sunday, September 25, 2016

"11 Days"

To my readers,

It has been 11 days since I last wrote a blog. I have just been dealing with a lot as of late. I have been dealing with my demons more and more. It has been due to the actions of 2 females I used to date. And it has just made me feel so much and realize a lot. I wrote about one of them in a previous blog and yes a part me of me is still feeling the effects of her actions. The other female was not right for me at the start and I knew it, but even though I did not date her very long and I tried to remain friends with her, but like the other her actions and her receiving some very brutal honesty from some of my friends, we are no longer friends. Which is fine by me, she simply wanted the same thing the one before her did. The major thing they both have in common is they both made the same promise that they will not treat me like my other girlfriends and my ex wife did. Which was total bullshit. When I sit down and explain what I have dealt with and what hell I have walked through do not tell me a lie. I refused to date after 2008/9 and I became a recluse. I wanted the world to leave me the hell alone and I hid myself away in an emotional hole. I finally got talked out of my hole in 2015 and was told "I will not treat you like my predecessors". She knew what she was getting herself into and now it is 2016 and even though we broke up in July her actions on Labor day have made me want to go back into that hole. But I got a little brave and met "Ms. 2 Weeks" it did not take long for her true colors to come to life. I ended it with her due to her actions. Then "Ms. 2 weeks" had to show the world her "intelligence" and make a really bad post on FB that backfired on her.

Since all of this I have taken one day at time and trying to regroup as the saying goes. It has made me appreciate what true friends I do have. It has also made we want to return to my gothic roots. But I have learned a lot from all of this. And even though Karma is a slow process and I really wish I could give her a helping hand, some people I am close to advise me otherwise. But it is all good. I will rebuild my life again maybe. I say that because I have nothing to rebuild from. When you have been dealing with what I have dealt with it is hard to rebuild from ash when everyone that comes in your life destroys you completely and leaves unscathed.

And to me that is unfair to me. Karma may be slow, but receiving a "gift" of darkness from me just reminds you that she is coming....

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

"Dragons are the sign of the Devil"

Before I start this blog. I want to make additional comments about my post "In Darkness":

She took a year away from me. When we broke up back in July it was not bothering me. I knew what she did wrong to me, and I knew why she did not make me happy. But its when the stunt she pulled by announcing to the world she was pregnant and I realized that she was sleeping around on me while she was with me that hit me hard and it made me feel like I wasted a year on another woman that truly did not give a fuck about me. So another woman out of my life that I wasted my time on and invested too much in her just to fucking destroy me. The best way I know how to describe how I feel is look on YouTube and search for Boondox's "Betrayal". That song is self explanatory.

Now back to our regularly scheduled blog.

If you have not read my older posts then I will go ahead and say this. I am an Atheist, I am gothic, and no I do not shove my theories of life and what not down your throat as long as you do not do the same. My parents are very devoted fundamentalist Christian and so they watch the televangelists on the "Church Channels." I do not know which one of them said this during a sermon but one of them mentioned that dragons if you collected them in your home was the sign of you letting the devil into your life Please also note that I have dragons, wizards, skulls, and the like all over my home and I am VERY proud of it. I even have a goddess Isis dagger that is very pretty. So my mom is declaring that I need to get rid of all of my stuff because "no good will come in your life as long as you have those items in your house." But please note that these same people that tell me I need to get rid of my devil stuff are the same people that bought me a dragon pocket watch a few year ago. Personally regardless of what I have in my home, not a lot of good has been in my life. This is a perfect example of why I am the way I am. I hate double standards, and that is something I have been dealing with my entire fucking life. Dragons are what drive me they remind me why I am gothic and dark to begin with. It is hard to claim an object is evil when the person who owns it is more evil.

It is stuff like this being said that makes people feel like they have to conform to what society wants.

As previously mentioned I have shared many stories about why I am no longer a Christian and why I became an Atheist. Just look at my older posts.

In Memory of Mike Moore


About a month ago Michael Alan Moore, "Mike" to his family, was killed senselessly at his home. Three punks came to buy a gun from him and one of those punks shot and killed him. Two out of three were arrested and probably will not ever be tried for this horrible act and the third the one that pulled the trigger will probably never be brought to justice because he is on the run.


I know his family. I know his mom, one of his brothers, and his wife. They did not deserve this and still no justice that may NEVER come. His mother is a mess and she may never recover from this. Mike was 26 years old and he leaves behind his wife, son, and daughter. He was a good person and did not deserve being murdered.

Guns do not kill people it is the punks/idiots/fools that point and pull the trigger. This is not a video game Mike is never coming back into this world.

I took the pictures the day of his funeral. I did it for him and had no plans to ever use them as a blog, but since I know his mother is still falling apart at the seams I felt it was time to write this.

R.I.P. Mike Moore....

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

"In Darkness"

"In darkness is where you found me and in darkness I will remain.."

This is a phrase I have used a lot over the years. I used to tell people that who first meet me, the same goes with women who find me interesting. I am gothic, I am dark, and yes I am a gentleman. Unless you try to kill me emotionally. I always thought that my ex-wife would be the only person ever to drive me to the edge, but I was VERY wrong...

I was with a young lady for almost a year, she was 21 when I first met her. I never thought that a woman that young would be interested in me. I had "disappeared" for nearly 7 years and my emotional walls were way up and I trusted no one. I look back at it now and I should of stayed that way. I had been through 9 years of hell (1999-2008), and after another episode with another woman, I wanted to die, that is what I wanted to do.

So I let her in my life it was different I thought she actually cared and then we broke up the first time and I should of known better and not let her come back but I did. Everything was ok after that I got her back into school, and I thought ok this might work. That lasted until March and then everything changed she quit school she did not want to work and she did not want to help me out. She basically pushed me away. At that time I did not know what was going on and I tried to make things better between us but she chose not to. She like my ex-wife started pushing me to the edge and in July we mutually ended it and agreed to be friends.

That was until Labor Day this year when I noticed that she was no longer a friend on one of my Facebook pages and then I sent a friend request and she fucking BLOCKED me. And then the truth came out she announced on her facebook that she was 5 months pregnant and I fucking flipped out. I was furious and hurt and betrayed and embarrassed because she was with ME while she was sleeping around. So I knew her kid was not mine simply due to the fact that there was no sex after this year started. Add to the fact that I found out she was talking shit about me. So that was more fuel on the fire. I treated her like a fucking queen and this is what I get for it. So yeah my life has not been the same since. She did what I thought no one would try and she fucking killed me, but it is ok she revived my darkside. So the walls are back up thicker and stronger. I want to go back into "hiding" again but those same people that talked me down from going to her house and deal with her accordingly, do not want me to go into hiding again either.

"So back into darkness I go but this time it is an emotional coffin instead of Pandora's box"

If betrayal and hurt feel like this then death will be a pleasure cruise...

Monday, September 12, 2016

Darkness Returns...

To my readers,

As I sit here and debate what I want to write on and yes there is so much I want to write about. Where have I been some of you may of been asking, or maybe in some cases who is this blogger? I admit that I have been gone awhile and I have been dealing with life. Some parts of my life have been difficult to accept. So as I let my Pandora station fill my room with music and I am trying to relax. I decided to write a blog.

I had different reasons for starting this blog and a lot of it was I needed a creative outlet for what I am dealing with or what I see on TV. Then I got busy along the way with trying to make my life better. I have accomplished that somewhat. I am out of the fast food business which was my main goal. Then last week happened and that is when I decided that maybe it was time to get back to my gothic roots and go back to the way I was. I felt like I really needed to do this since in the past year a female almost killed what little bit of me still existed. Do I feel like she accomplished her goal, yes unfortunately I do. But as a result of all that I have found out this week yes she destroyed me but she released the fury of my darkside and not a lot of people can fathom how I am when I am in my "darkest place". Yes I am a believer in Karma but sometimes I feel it moves to slow and I want to help it along. Once she killed me emotionally, starved me to death for affection, and overall tried to drive my dark side out, then that only leaves anger and darkness. I reached my borderline breaking point back in July, but after this week and then finding out what was really going on then Pandora's box was destroyed and I was ready to show her like I have shown so many in the past what I am like when my veil of restraint is totally gone. Thankfully I have some very awesome friends in this world.

So I have decided to bring my blog back and use it as my outlet again.

Darkness Returns....

Monday, July 4, 2016

Foundations of America

So I was listening tonight to part one of a 2 part sermon on America by John Hague's son. My parents are big fans of this minister. He was "preaching" on the 3 foundations of America that if they are broken or destroyed then we no longer have an America. The 3 things were Faith, Education, and family. He was discussing family first and how the divorce rate in this country is at an all time high, and how many couples are living together but not getting married. He mentioned that since these couples are not getting married they are "simply throwing marriage and the ideologies of marriage away". Since these couples are "throwing" that away that the homosexuals want to "catch" it and have the same rights as a man and woman couple. He also claimed that alot of these couples living together saw their parents get divorced and they do not want to go through that. Well alot of couples that are simply living together are not throwing away the theory of marriage because of what their parents went through. Alot of couples that never get married come from families where there parents did stay married. My parents just celebrated 43 years together. Both are "baby boomers". What people do not realize is that these couples that just live together and never get married mainly do not get married because some of them may of had been involved in a really bad relationship in the past, or they may of witnessed something like domestic violence when growing up. Some couples I know choose to never marry because they cannot afford too or feel like since they already have a child together and the kid may or may not have the father's last name. No one really knows what kinds of circumstances people go through in life. Christians mainly read the bible first and never ask the right questions because they believe the "good book" is always right.

Education was the second thing that was being "preached" on. He was claiming that religion needs to be allowed back in schools. That the Bible needs to be taught in science class to explain where humans come from. The whole "God created Earth and Man". That we did not come from monkeys. A typical Christian wanting to deny the theory of evolution. That is what I was taught in science classes. When I was in high school we had a Christian group where they could bring their bibles and read from them. A kid could do a "silent prayer" during classes or whatever and we had a minister lead in prayer at foot ball games. And besides isn't something called the separation of church and state in this country. And isn't a school run by the state? I never had a problem with a before school group, please notice the word "before". Schools need to be allowed to teach kids the facts. the biggest problem with education in this country is the fact that kids now a days have hardly any help at home. The way kids are being taught these days is leading to too much homework at home which leads to stress and loss of interest in school which creates more drop outs.

And finally Faith. So where do I go with this. Preachers like Mr. Hager are scared that people are losing their faith in religion. Most of that is blamed on society. What is making people lose faith in religion? Most young people will probably tell you that they walked away from religion due to them realizing the truth about religion in this country. Alot lose their faith because of big name ministers on television doing something stupid. Or they were like me and have something bad in their life happen like a family member dying and looking up in the sky and asking why God did not prevent this from happening.

I wish people would face the simple fact that Christianity is loosing popularity. It wants to shove itself down your throat and indoctrinate you into it.

*The author of this blog discusses why he left religion in an older blog post*.

A Friendly Reminder

This is just a friendly reminder to all my readers (old and new).

If you have not read my older posts please read those first. I am saying this because if you are a new. reader you are not really sure what you are going to read and if you are one of my regular readers then you already know what I say on this blog.

I do not hold back my opinion on things I see going on in the world. If I offend you then please find another blog that is willing to cater to your beliefs or opinions. I tend to swear in my posts but I do try to keep it to a minimum. I am human after all and I am not perfect. This is NOT a G-rated blog. I try to keep PG, sometimes it goes PG-13, but there are times it goes to an R-rating especially if it is a Rant post. As I said I am very opinionated on certain topics.

So welcome back to the chaos that is this blog....

The Long Road

To my readers and followers,

It has been nearly a year since my last post. I wrote back in October 2015 and here it is July 2016. If had been writing in between then and now my blog would of celebrated its 2 year anniversary back earlier this year.

The world has changed alot since Oct. 2015 and so has mine. I finally finished school back in Dec of 2015. I have been working a full time job also. I enjoy what I am doing now. I am doing PC work for a company. So as you can see alot has changed since my last post.

The world has changed too. Look at this year's presidential campaign. Mass shootings are on the rise. Terrorism is still running rampart. Great Britain left the European Union. We have the Zika virus spreading. I may of misspelled it but you get the idea. Windows 10 came out last summer and is still freaking people out.

My blog got lost in the shuffle of all I have had going on.I have worked 2 jobs and trying to finish school and now I am done with school. Plus I felt like I had lost interest in writing this blog, but the past few weeks I have been getting notices on my blogs facebook page that people have been viewing some of my older posts. I also have had friends want me to write again.

We will see if this blog like a phoenix can rise again...

Happy fourth of July 2016.