Blog #80

I have spent the past few days debating what to write for this blog. I never thought I would make it to #80 and I never thought that I would have so many page views either, but despite the days away from writing this blog due to my job and then I wrote a couple of blogs to play catch up. I was afraid that I had lost a bunch of my readers with me falling off the face of the world and I apologized for that and even wrote it down as a blog. Thank you for accepting my apology. I have been dealing with alot the past few weeks, mostly with work.

I hate my job, I am not going to lie about it. I have been trying to find another job but to no avail and I hear it all the time that I need to be thankful for having a job. Yes I am but the past three years at my current job has been tough. Between the management changes and the drama caused by employees it has been hard on me. I went back to school due to my job and now I have changed majors and their were alot of people not happy with my decision and I feel like I should of done it sooner but like my job I thought it would get better. People will always as the saying goes "let their mouths write checks that their asses will never cash". I am tired of working with liars and drama causers, it has got so bad that I no longer feel needed at my job because everyone thinks they know better and that is stressful. That is why I was gone from writing this blog for a few days. I am also now registered for summer semester under my new major. I am scared of this new direction I am not going to lie. I am hoping that in the long run it will be worth, my self esteem can not afford another hit. It can not get any lower.

I am still dealing with this feeling of something is missing. Something in me has changed and I am still not sure what it is. Some say that it has not died just waiting for a reawakening. I am hoping they are right.

Thank you all for the continued support and I hope that all of you keep coming back.

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