Pondering Life

To those that are keeping up with this blog. I am sorry that I have not written the past few days. School started back this week and just other things have come up.

I know that most of you or all of you would say that I need to be thankful for having a job in these current economic times. I have been told by many that I need to be thankful everyday that I have a job no matter how bad you hate it and that you just have to swallow your pride and just do it. To my readers I am sick of hearing this. Most of the people who tell me this have no clue the war I face everytime I go to work and due to how things are run and the supposed "leader" who is NOT  leading by example, and the higher chain of command who is "blind" to what is going on at my job. I can no longer do it and that is why I cut my hours back since 2011 due to me starting school ( trying to get my life in order) and my dad's heart attack, I also cut back at my job just due to STRESS caused by poor leadership and the "leader" hiring his friends. I have as the saying goes fought the good fight and my mind and body will not let me do it anymore. I have been looking for another job and my stupid ass has let several jobs slip by me or I have tried out for a job and either gotten no answer or just flat out NO. I am considering trying to step down from my position at my job and go back to being a common worker, yes it will be less pay and less stress, but it will get me by until I get done with school and get everything done after I graduate. Or I am pondering finding a job that is not in food/hospitality but the down side to that is the job will be out of town and it might either not pay as much or give me the hours I need to survive. Plus the whole insurance debate (which is another blog).

I simply do not know what to do. My family says find another job or in some cases I should have found another job after what happened in April 2013 (which that is also another subject of another blog).

So after a couple of days of no blog from me.....

WELCOME BACK TO THE CHAOS!!!