"Not Sure Where to Start..."

So I have been away from my blog for awhile. I have not had much to say, been dealing with life. As some of you may know I dealt with a lot in 2016, and since my last blog my life has just stopped. Some may debate that I had become depressed which is not the case. I just shut down emotionally. The past year just "killed" me is the best way I know how to describe it. A huge part of me died and I doubt I will ever get it back or be the person I used to be. Its funny how people you know and trust can just burn you past your core and just simply slaughter you, without a care in the world. I lost a good friend of over 10 years, and went through a lot for her. I even helped her find her indemnity and a path in life. But for awhile now I knew I was getting smoke blown up my ass and it all came to ahead and when all of your secrets show up one day courtesy of Facebook. So here I am in 2017, totally not the same person everyone used to know.

I had considered ending this blog. I was not doing anything with it and I thought I had lost readers but I have noticed that some people are finding my blog and I guess just being curious. And some of my friends have said not for me to end my blog. To be honest I almost ended my entire "footprint" on the internet. I wanted to shutdown my blog, my Facebook, my twitter, just everything I was involved with. I wanted to disappear.

When you feel unwanted and betrayed and obsolete in the eyes of the world, and you feel like your world is totally dead it takes its toll on you. I have just felt like a huge part of me has been ripped out or murdered is the best way to describe it.

So I am going to give this another shot.

"Hello Darkness My Old Friend...."